today in 24.

So I'm super stressed out. Life is astoundingly cyclic. So much that its often hard to keep up. But no matter what you have to do it. Stay on track. Follow the cycle. Go with the flow. Blah blah. It sucks but its just trouble not to do it. And its expensive!

Psycho therapist on Judge Joe Brown. Just before this show Judge Judy owned this dead beat dad. It was a good episode. She is normally a little to presumptuous & abrasive for me but she was on point that time.

I want to start a web show. I should say, I'm trying to start a web show. I'm really excited about it and a lot of really amazing people are involved. I've also been writing. So many random streams of thought. Its kind of cool. I just need to finish something I start.

I am a fool and I rush in. Think I'm actually over it all together. Apparently this theme of men in their twenties informally staking claim on you just because you sleep together but otherwise treat you as a buddy is not cool. Its not. Its annoying. What happened to dating? Oh everyone is stupid. And they wonder why women are crazy. I'm not crazy.. you're annoying. I mean I try to represent myself as a respectable young woman who is well on her way to getting her shit together.. no more no less. As said "respectable young woman" I want to be respected and treated like a lady [so to speak] and I want some GD chilvarly! And not just when you want something! Seriously.. do not deny that shit and I'm not expecting everything to have you representing your undenying love for me at every moment but can you please verbalize a little more? Like why do dudes have to be so tight lipped about stuff? Why are dudes like Vulcans? Waiting until it pretty much doesn't matter to be like "Oh wait.. I totally loved her." Dumb ass. I've become uncommonly unselective with dating too. It seems I have a strong connection with some but have this psycho analyzation-sketch-o-meter that just won't quit. And with others, its cool but it just doesn't seem to work. Its just a little awkward and uncomfortable beyond friendly hang outs and cuddling. Another trend I've recognized, a self indulgent need to antagonize women. All dudes ever talk about is how women are so complicated and emotional. Why would you antagonize that? What is fun about that? That's rude and unnecessary. I think its childish too. I just want to be content and I don't want to have to chase someone about or constantly seek them. I want someone to seek me and I don't want to have to tell them to do that. That is not something that should be coached. You either are that way or you're not, and even worse some people may have been that way at one point and then completely lost it. That's weak. Just like girls have to get over douche bag exes, men need to regain the ability to emote beyond sex and then pursuit of said sex because some girls need, like and really appreciate it.

I'm going to see Dragonforce tonight with Julie. I hope that its cool.

I believe a milk shake is necessary.